Staying the Course

We are in the penitential season of Lent and nearing the purifying practice of fasting during Ramadan.  We are engulfed in a huge transition, the end of which we may envision or guess, but cannot yet see with certainty.   We are exhausted by restrictions engendered by a worldwide virus, and even with vaccinations available for many, there is no return to “normal”, whatever that may now look like.  Our politicians seem to be busier attacking each other than working on cooperative solutions.  Economic instability is a looming threat.  Many people, including me, are feeling burdened and have ‘had enough, already’.  It would be so nice if we could count on Easter, Eid, or Passover, celebrations that they are, to end the chaos around us.  It does not seem that it will be so.

The well-known teacher Sandra Ingermann, in one of her workshops, advised those listening to never “sit down during the dark night of the soul.”   It is advice that is relevant to the times.   I do not think that she means to never relax or have fun; in fact, she encourages people to relax in nature, to let the healing and calming energy of nature enfold them.    To not sit down means to not give up, to not let the weight of whatever one is processing cause one to stop engaging with life, to allow an apathy or hindering depression to take over and prompt one to withdraw from the growing and the change.

Change and its seeming disorder are always with us.  Change is rarely patterned logically, nor is it predictable to the reasoning mind.  Change is kaleidoscopic; the patterns can be beautiful or not, but they fall as they are, responding to a present moment.   Sometimes it seems insane, yet, in the long run, change often brings a higher result.  Is not spring in the heart of winter? The Chinese symbol shows that Yin is in Yang, and Yang is in Yin – the two are forever joined as one.

The Arctic peoples know well not to lie down in the snow in the dark and cold of winter, no matter the weariness one may feel.  Just a few minutes of lying down in the Arctic cold and dark causes an exit from the planet.  Similarly, it is when we feel the most burdened and disheartened that we must carry on, walking not as if we were about to fall under the burden, but standing straight, breathing calmly, finding beauty, and expressing kindness to all around.   It is also good if we will sing, or dance from time to time.  This is how we come through into the light after the dark.  It takes discipline.  It takes faith.

Part of carrying on through the dark is holding the highest vision we can of an outcome that nurtures the planet and its denizens and our fellow humans.  It is not a matter of having our own way only, of power over others.  It is not a vision simply of relief from suffering or the weight of our burdens.  It is creative, drawn from the love of life we all intrinsically possess, if we are willing to see it.  The particulars of individual highest visions may vary, but their ultimate goal is the same, the benefit of all concerned.  It is a vision born of love.    Such individual visions, combined, cannot but help to bring the highest good to all.  It is not always easy to hold the highest vision, but it is the way to what we seek.

With Passover, Easter and Eed upcoming (and yes, St. Patrick’s Day, too), let us set our individual intents to walk our paths with confidence a while longer, and use our celebrations as encouragement along the way.

Peace, Diane

Focus

Focus

Several years ago, I had cataract surgery. I had worn glasses for poor vision before the surgery, but it was not until my ability to change visual focus naturally was taken from me by the surgery that I realized the importance of focus, at least visually.  The surgery removed my cataract-clouded natural lenses and replaced them with artificial lenses, giving me clearer vision but restricted to a specific focus, a far vision focus suitable for driving or walking.  To change my focus, I now require glasses geared to the focus I wish to achieve.

As important as focus is visually, it is exponentially more important when it comes to what we pay attention to.  I am not saying when it comes to what we believe, but what we focus on.  We may believe in the existence of extra-terrestrials, but not pay much attention to it, and also not be graced with flying saucer sightings.  Or we may believe that love conquers all but pay attention to the ways people hurt and betray each other, and have a very difficult time finding the love in which we believe.  It is the attention that counts; we attract what we pay attention to, one way or another.

We are currently in a time of chaos and transition.  In time, from this chaos will emerge a new way of being, of organizing, and perhaps even a new kind of human.  At the moment, the possibilities are myriad.  Richard Bach, in his book One, talks about parallel lifetimes, each a reality due to the choices that were made by the individuals (in the book’s case, he and his wife) that led to the different directions each life takes.  We are now in a kind of energy vortex, and the choices we make now will determine the course(s) our lives take.  There are so many possibilities.  Bach’s book, when I first read it, sent me into a kind of mental overload; I simply could not hold in mind simultaneously the many parallel paths he explored, all existing but hidden from each other except as he explored them. Now, I can see clearly paths forward in several (of course, not in all of the possible) different directions.  One direction is favored by the media and will lead to a result we may not have expected.  Others are also valid directions, each with results depending on the premise that underlies that particular path.  It is still overwhelming, and the temptation to follow those paths into the future and become preoccupied by that effort can be a siren call.

This awareness is a good thing, not something to become blind to.  We need the ability to follow into the future the outcomes that our choices of today can produce.  We also need the in-the-moment ability to sense what is going on amidst the chaos.  However, given that what we pay attention to tends to be what we manifest, the focus on what we are doing NOW, juxtaposed to what we have thoughtfully determined we want, is the most important.  We must resist the temptation to submerge ourselves in the “good old times” of the past (or in the traumas and suffering and anger and blaming), or to get lost in the maze of future possibilities and the fear some of them can produce.   We need to keep a focus on the present moment; this present moment is the space we have to create what we want to see.

The question is, what, in this present moment, do we want to see long term???  It is not simply how we must react to a situation to which the media promotes ever more fear, so that we believe that we have no choice but to follow the promoted story and keep our feet on that path, but what exactly do we want as the more beautiful, nurturing life we can envision?  (Although some of us may not want that, preferring a more contentious life that seems to assure more power or a more compliant life that promises more security.)  Rarely has armed opposition or inimical struggle brought about a lasting and fully positive outcome, and rarely has abdication of our individual power done that either.  There is a middle ground.  Yes, we need to learn to live cooperatively with each other, and with a sense of community.  First, however, we must heal ourselves so that we can not only envision a healed existence, but also act in the present moment based on what we envision.  Do we envision a world which is peaceful, which has abandoned the practice of war?   We must first be peaceful ourselves, having ceased to fight.  Do we wish to live in a world surrounded by the generous beauty of the natural world?  We must first become a part of nature, healing her as we heal ourselves.  Do we wish to live in a world of plenty?  First, we must be plenty ourselves, generously sharing with others of the plenty we have.  Do we wish to live in a world in which we are respected and appreciated for our talents?   First, we must learn to respect others, to appreciate their talents, and to retain our sense of awe, of wonder. We must carefully choose our visions.  Should we envision that which destroys or diminishes others or Nature itself, we will ourselves be destroyed and diminished thereby.  We must be careful choosers, and we must then be that vision we welcome into ourselves.  What we are doing in this present moment is our focus.

Our focus can be expressed in our actions, in our thoughts and in our souls. Whichever ways it is expressed, we must first choose to form and maintain the focus.  Before we can form and use focus, we must wake up and take the responsibility of knowing that no one or no thing else will save us, while we do nothing.  It is time to awaken and carefully create our visons, and to grow in strength to use our focus to heal and nurture our surroundings.  It is time to bring responsibility and creativity, life, and loving nurture as a response to apathy and entropy.  It is up to us.  What are we going to do?

 

Peace, Diane

 

Surface and Depth

 Surface and Depth

Last week, for the first time since March, I was able to go to my Tai Chi class in person.  There were only 4 people there; we kept distance and were masked, following the official pandemic protocols.   Even so, being able to do the form along with other people in real time, to talk in person, unmediated by machine, and to simply sense each other’s presence was a poignant reminder of something slightly suppressed but not forgotten and for which most of us long – being in community with other people in the way people were created to be. 

The sudden advent of the virus, the avalanche of change in reaction to it, and the subsequent rapid chaos has made the apparently mutating virus and the responses to it difficult to understand.  Even though we may understand the opportunities the virus has opened by unmasking the need to make social changes, even though we are cognizant of the relationship between the virus and our own part in the increasingly rapid progress of the death of the planet, even though we have observed the continued predilection for war and concern for individual benefit when many others suffer – even though we may be aware of the connectedness of all things, there is something not quite right about the way this virus is being handled.  It is hard to finger exactly what, but the sense is there.

Most obvious is that people are being asked to change their behavior into patterns for which humans are not designed.  Humans were never meant to exist distant from each other, masked as if the other might harm, not trusting and out of fear putting social pressure on each other to conform.  How are we expected to cooperate with each other (such as agreeing to wear masks as a communal practice) if we are told to stay apart, peppered with fear from media, told our very surroundings may make us ill, hampered in communication, and, basically held in isolation?  Fear is being used to make sure the majority comply.    Something is fishy here.   Is fear not the means used to keep populations stable under a quite different kind of government than we have assumed is ours?  So, we have first required unnatural behavior and next, rule by fear.

We hear a lot about staying healthy by wearing masks and avoiding each other, or by frequently scrubbing any available surface.  We hear that we have hope of health because a vaccine will soon be readily available.  It is good to maintain hygiene, and people do need hope even if there are questions about time for testing of new forms of vaccines and questions about related topics such as the effectiveness of related flu vaccines, given that those viruses tend to mutate, too.  However, where is the information on how to strengthen the innate human immunity or to use the plants found in nature for immune support?  They seem mutually supportive approaches with the masking, distancing, scrubbing and prospective vaccines.  Do those in authority not want us to know about those, or do they want us to consider them inferior to the approved and supported approaches?

There is also a strangeness in the response to economic effects created by requiring people to stay apart.   Small businesses are the most effected.  Small businesses are the lifeblood of a free, cooperative, and resilient population.   Yet, which businesses are going under, some perhaps unable to open again?  It is the small businesses; the corporations are somehow getting enough bailout support to carry them through the crisis.   It is the poor and the small who seem to be getting a choice between death by virus or death by economic decimation.  It is though the destruction of existing society (including major social institutions) were a goal, in favor of an order favoring even further the entrenched privileged.    Yes, the social order we have had has major flaws and needs re-structuring; but is the vectoring towards the upper few the direction in which we want the change to go?

Then there is the prolongation of the situation.  Yes, there is the explanation that it is because of the people who would not comply, and because of incompetent political leadership, even because the virus itself is mutating and re-infecting people.   Those would seem to be reasonable explanations, except that it is highly suggestive of scapegoating – the effort to point the finger elsewhere so as to not have to look at what really is.  Notice also that the fear in the media is increasing – the virus is reported to be more and more deadly and contagious, something we need to fear even more deeply, as if we were not already enough afraid.  Yet an equally dangerous, if even more deadly situation is not even being mentioned – the rapid increase in climate change and direct destruction of our planet, as pollution, soil destruction, CO2 emissions, and waste continue.  The response to the virus is even exacerbating them, such as the increased use of single use plastics.

What we are encouraged to trust is communication technology – internet, social media, email, texts, smart phones, and the like.  Marvelous as the technology is, it is certainly not the natural way to be, human communication mediated by machine.  Many, though, have learned to consider it as natural, to even be more comfortable communicating that way than in person.  The attitude apparently is to not question the situation because we have the technology to turn to.  But is the technology as trustworthy as it seems we are supposed to believe?   There are the scammers and hackers which prey upon the users of technology, targeting the unwary and those not up to par on computer security.  They may be criminals, and they may also be those who want to know what we are thinking so that they may target ads to us.  They are the surface.  Artificial intelligence has made it far easier for our life’s data to be collected, stored, and used to entice, manipulate, or perhaps even punish us.  Use of sophisticated technology is being considered to ensure that we all get vaccinated, whether or not we feel the vaccine itself is trustworthy; in addition to being vaccinated, it is proposed that we be tracked.  Ostensibly, the tracking is to ensure vaccine compliance, but such systems are certainly capable of following people wherever they go, watching with whom they associate, what they say, and perhaps what they think or feel.   Is this the society in which we wish to live?

There are more questions than answers.   Yes, there is a virus pandemic, and precautions need be taken.  Even with consensus on that condition, however, there is a sense that more is underfoot than a pandemic.  It is worth paying attention to.  While we are dealing as best we can with the virus and attempting to stay afloat as we navigate the extant chaos, we need also to maintain an awareness that more may be going on than obviously meets the eye.  Maintaining awareness is the price of retaining choices.  May we all learn to touch the deeper consciousness of the gathering forces and processes endeavoring to change our world, so that we may be able to choose between them and grow to realize our ability to use our choices to shape a world in which we wish to live.

Peace, Diane

Coronageddon

Like most everyone else this weekend, I have been experiencing the shock of the expected changes in lifestyle and perception of others that the new coronavirus has precipitously thrust upon us. The virus, a yet unknown and incompletely understood member of the larger coronavirus family, has become a worldwide urgent health concern.  Although its effects can be mild upon the otherwise healthy who become infected, it is deadly to the frail or immunocompromised.  Although its incipient sources are variously reported (official and other theories), the source of the virus is irrelevant.  It is how we respond to it that matters.  It is also concerning that despite all we hear on the media, some of the responses, official and popular, to which we are all supposed to agree, do not make sense.   There is a lack of thinking through.   We have certainly had time, since the initial appearance of the virus in China, to create planned responses.

I realize that those of us who speak out not fully on the bandwagon are likely to become anathema to some extent.  That phenomenon itself is another issue.  However, we need to complete the thinking through, and for that to happen, disagreeing voices need to be heard.

There is a need for reasonable caution and increase in the frequency of habitual hygiene, both in keeping the areas around people clean and in the frequency with which we wash or sanitize our hands.  What is unnecessary is the complete panic which leads people to anticipate infection at any moment and dire consequences, up to and including death.  Most of us are afraid both of death and of the unknown.  I see this fear being exploited into a general public panic, one which not only guarantees public submission to official directives but also ensures ostracism of anyone who is viewed as not in line with the public fear.  At least on the surface, most of us agree with how horrible this all is (and it is most certainly a threat) and how necessary and correct are all the official directives.   One of the directives is to make sure one stocks up in case of restriction to homes, i.e., quarantines.  Public panic is added to this, and hoarding and barren shelves are the result.  We need reasonable precaution; we do not need fear, hysteria, and battles in the grocery stores.

Then there are the issues of preparation.  Apparently, we do not have enough respirators, masks, hospital beds, or protective gear for caregivers to ensure proper care for those who need it.  If we listen to the news, that would be most of us.  However, this intensive care is needed for only a few of those who become infected.  Why have we not anticipated the need and prepared before the rapid spread of the virus took place??  We do not even have sufficient home tests so that people who are uninfected or mildly infected can definitively determine whether they are a risk to others.  Instead, we have a directive to mostly stay home and be sure we are six feet away from another human being.  Infected people need to stay away from others, and let people know they are infected; uninfected people should be allowed to do their business as usual, because we need people who can keep things together and running smoothly.  However, as it stands, no one really knows who is infected and who isn’t, which leads to the assumption that everyone is infected, and that other people are a threat. Why do we not have an abundant supply of tests? 

We need to focus more of our attention on the healing of those who are seriously affected.  The official count is that 80% of those infected with the virus will have mild or even no symptoms and will not need treatment.  The remaining 20% do need that treatment, and it should be available.  Instead we have focused on prevention.  Prevention, of course, is most valuable, although some of the measures directed to be taken are rather Draconian.  Prevention, however, does not dismiss the need for treatment.  If everyone who needed it (and I suppose that 20% of the population of the country is a significant number) could readily get treatment, much of the panic might be alleviated.  I do not hear reassurance that treatment will be readily available; I do hear intense insistence that all Draconian directives be observed.  If 80% of us will not need treatment, why is treatment inadequately available for the 20% who do?

The largest of the more Draconian directives is the conglomerate subsumed under the title of social distancing. Included in this category are some categories of quarantine or limitation of movement, closing of schools and businesses, the designation of six feet as the distance that needs be between people, cancellation of events which many people attend, such as sports events, weddings, concerts, and places of worship, and the instruction to not touch each other, except perhaps by bumping elbows.  People are advised to communicate mostly via mediation by machines, e.g., computers.  There are two major effects of this directive.  One is economic; the other is the way in which people view each other.

Economically, the closing of schools and businesses, especially those that do not lend themselves to working virtually from home, throws an already unequal and fragile economy into chaos.  Most working people do not have a few months of savings on which to live; many also have no leave and are paid only for the hours they work.  Closing the businesses or requiring that people work only from home means that a great many people may well be en route to joining the homeless; they will not be able to pay for rent, food, utilities, on even a basic level, unless they work.  Closing the schools and daycares only further exacerbates this.  In families (most of them) which require the income of both working parents, the income of one parent will be lost because one parent must stay home with the children who are not in school or daycare.  The recommendation is that family (i.e., grandparents) not be called upon to babysit, as those people are at higher risk from the coronavirus.  Cooperative daycare also violates the principle of social distancing.  Add to this that the schools are where many kids get their most nutritious meals of the day, and the special services that some of them need.  These resources are lost when the schools close, putting further strain upon the already strongly disadvantaged families.  This kind of economic breakdown can seriously exacerbate the advance of a virus.

When one is required to keep six feet of distance between other people and oneself, and is told not to touch others, especially not to hug family and  friends, because doing so is not only the way to catch the virus but also to endanger others, the basic perception of others is changed.  Instead of being a support in times of stress and change, people become the threat.  One is psychologically isolated, taught to look upon others as suspect or at oneself as harmful to others.   People are genetically constructed as communal animals; we need to live together, trusting at least in our own groups and nourishing each other with touch.  The results of insisting that people distance themselves from others cannot be fully known in the present, but I cannot see that the changes will be positive or constructive, leading us to cooperate and create a constructive future.

One of the most traumatizing aspects of social distancing is the forcible separation of families from their elder members who are living in nursing homes.  Billed as protection for the elderly, this in fact neither protects nor solves anything.   Many if not most of the elders in affected homes are infected with the virus.  Staff are also affected by the virus.  Some of them become ill and cannot work, resulting in shortage of care for the elders.  Others have no symptoms but are carriers.  They are not screened but come to work and leave in a normal fashion.  Relatives of residents, who are banned from visiting them, attempt to comfort their elders via telephone and gestures outside their windows.  Many of those elders are ill or dying.  They are left to recover or die alone. This has been on TV news, in particular but not limited to a nursing home in Washington state.   What is the problem that causes them to be separated from their families to die alone, often inadequately cared for?  If they are ill already, they cannot be re-infected by their families.  Families may catch the virus from them but are unlikely to be as severely affected.   If staff is short, cannot families volunteer to cover at least some of the care of their loved ones?  There is no reason to forcibly separate an ill or dying elder from his or her family.  No virus is slowed thereby.

The suggestion that social distancing is not a problem because we can communicate adequately via machine mediation (computers, phones, devices) is basically untrue, unless the goal is to have all people living online instead of in the world, where, of course, they can be more easily influenced and monitored.  I am not suggesting that there is a conspiracy to that effect, simply that the suggestion that human communication, which requires touch and presence, is adequately achieved via technology, marvelous though technology may be, is a falsehood.  Humans communicate differently from robots or computers.   Robots and computers are wonderful and useful, but humans cannot become them.

Most of the changes suggested to prevent or slow the virus have already been implemented in other countries.  There have been no sustained studies of their effects, but also no reports that the implementation of these directives has resulted in slowing the virus.  There are absolutely no reports that it has prevented the virus’ spreading.  One wonders, for such small return, why such widespread change and sacrifice are so insistently required.  Is it to distract from basic truths about the virus – that it runs its course and is little if at all slowed or stopped, that it is mild in 80% of the population but severe and/or deadly in the remaining 20% unless treated soon and thoroughly?  Or??

Another effect of the intense focus on the current coronavirus is that other issues that need attention are being ignored.  For example, the climate crisis is as much a threat to human life as is the coronavirus.  Nobody seems to be paying attention anymore.   Or, one can hope that the results of the current election will set a direction for the next four years.  The selection of a candidate seems to have dropped below the radar of attention.  Yes, the health crisis of the coronavirus needs attention, but not at the expense of other issues of equal urgency.  We can pay attention to reasonable precaution without panic at the same time as we focus on how to heal our planet and notice how whom we elect or do not elect can influence both issues.  The hullabaloo and panic are doing us no good.

The crises will not spontaneously go away – we will be faced with them during the near future.  Let us learn to not simply react in panic, but to think through the results of the ways in which we respond.

Peace, Diane